from locked out to tucked in

    2001-10-04/5:22 a.m.

    **"Cause even though when times got rough, you never turned away, you were right there, and I thank you!"** ~Boyz II Men
~oh my, it is quite late, so this is going to have to be a shorter entry than most...well basically, i would've written this earlier, but i was in maggs and kimmie's room all night talking about...well about stuff. and one conversation just led to another (by the way, all this heart to heart conversation took place after maggs got really super hyper and loud and kim and maggs ended up getting locked out of their room, we had to get the RA, she had to wake up (it was 2am mind you!) and go downstairs to get the key, yadda yadda yadda, it was extremely funny, as you might imagine, but then came time for some serious talk...) so me and maggs were trying to help kimmie with a problem, or at least just try and understand her, and all we made her do is cry, so i dont know if we helped any, but we love her, and were just trying to help, ya know? and then me and maggs got in a conversation where we both ended up crying, not like bawling, but just like getting teary-eyed and choked up from time to time, and this lasted for like two hours! so as you can imagine, i am very emotionally drained, but i do wanna say this.......margaret really cares so much about people, like she always just wants whats best for them and she'll do whatever it takes, even if it means reaching inside you and pulling out the ugly stuff only to reevaluate it and make it somehow all seem worthwhile.  she has this unique ability to just know, well maybe thats just with me, but she just knows somethings, without me ever even telling her and the best part is, in the end, all she makes me want to do is smile, so thanks maggs, for...well just for everything...
~on another note, i talked to kate tonight (the lovely designer of my page!) and she just sounded so happy and content, it made my heart melt...i dont know if its oren or just this point shes at in her life, but it makes me so giddy to hear the joy in her voice and i am so happy for her! also, i just wanna thank the ever so sweet tink for putting that lovely lil comment about me in her diary yesterday, because through taneea (pixie) we've both gained a new friend and that just makes me happy! plus she is just so genuinely sweet and said some really thoughtful remarks about my poetry in my guestbook and i just cant thank her enough, because positive feedback like that is what i thrive on, so thank you tink! oh yeah, and i told my sister that she should check out last night's entry, and she did and she said it made her cry cuz she just sat back and thought, "wow, i have the bestest sister in the world" ... but i think its the other way around :)...so thats about it for me tonight...i better get some sleep because my brynnylin is coming tomorrow!! and i am so happy cuz i get to see her and i get to see six hot guys tapping in "Tap Dogs" too, so yeah, its gonna be fun! but for now, i'm gonna go tuck myself into bed...nite! 
p.s. i forgot i wanted to thank taneea for putting that lil "dedication to her friends" in her diary, cuz i just love her and i mean all the wonderful things i say about her...and i wanted to tell jelani that i will try to tell tania not to feel bad, but seeing as that i have the same disease, i dont know how much it will help! and thanks for the shout-out in the diary jelani! you're just great, but...whats the ball rolling?! :)

    
    
    

    


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